Swallows to Wake You

do you want to know what language i’m wearing. where birds
used to gather not. calling but admitting you anymore
find them: turned thoroughly. snow
                              in-
                              sul-
                              ates the
                              tele
                              phone
wires is. woman’s garment. shaping from the signal what
used to be called. in days not anymore. well-remembered but
neither altogether stricken from. the record its. figure. the wires cross
                              dressing (
                              change
                              of sex regarded in that time as
                              fore
                              ground
                              to prophecy:
                              the
future lifting up its skirt) are turned anymore. to winter
and inside it. payphone. ringing. just-visible inside a snowdrift. your
                              bolting (as
                              of
                              lace)
from the door to catch that when it. wakes you. and no signal
coming down the line but. static. your Hello? sidling on white noise: language
                              of your
                              very
                              own
                              ossicles
                              wring
                              ing them
                              selves
                              out. this:
this alone reaches you now. is the booth. the small room you’ve walked not un-
knowingly into was. prefigured. in not (as used. to be) the
language. colourful. of birds but in their. silence. as
                              the first
                              head
                              lines were breaking
                              mornings
were already quiet: FLYCATCHERS,
                              SWALLOWS AND
                              WARBLERS
                              ‘FALLING OUT
                              OF THE
                              SKY.’
                              tawny
hail pelts the coasts it used. to be swallows to. wake you. would come
home. benign (as in spring) alarm lifting the. figure. of telephone
wires from the wires. anymore is snow
                              blind. anymore
                              you get
                              the
                              ring.
in the booth is static leaving. nothing. to imagination. the pay
phone’s plastic. liver coos into your ear (where you have. imagined
                              instead the
                              lover) as she
                              recites the
                              news.
                              here
                              it all is
                              she tells you:
here. leaving. us—what are we playing at? what’s my role. here. who calls
on payphones anymore. who gives. the sign. everyone can tell.
the future. i can give everything. away. am
                              merely static.
                              figur
                              ing it
                              self
                              for
                              your pleasure. that’s
                              my
                              drone bird voice
                              now. coo
                              ing. head
lines you believed were someone else’s. future. are spinning
in the alley. trodden-on in oily. snow. they are my dress. my night-
                              clothes:
                              take
                              them i say and
                              so you
                              take them.
                              you are
                              coming
                              out
of sleep. so we can at least speak. materially. about the fibers of your
dreams again. your filaments. the firm
                              ament and its
                              many wintering
                              birds: poly
                              carb
                              on
                              ate
                              black
                              lips
flapping incorruptibly (as bodies of certain female saints) south
toward. the great pacific waste heap. was it my ring
                              ing
                              tore
                              you
from that. Oh the swallows do return! i heard you. say even from
the anymore side. of the line. heard you. inside your bolting
like. you believed the skirts. were lifted
                              your
                              days of pro
                              phe
                              cy
were come again: you could be auspice. avispex. looker
at the birds. eyes bared and. receiving...
                              —do you like it when i call you
                              solo
                              mon?
i ask you as you tug. no future but the. anymore. down its burnt-out wires. you
can call me anything. i can be wearing any sex. you like. for this
                              is your. signal.
                              now
                              was that
                              ossicles or.
                              icicles
                              ? if
                              i’m cutting
                              out.
                              it’s
time. to put another nickel in. the nick of time. which is my
                              nick.
                              my
                              plastic
                              swal
                              low
                              voice curls
up inside your ear is. talking backwards and. are the lips
of prophecy everting. you must recall a place
                              where
                              birds.
                              still
                              fall
instead of snow. where collapse is only just. happening. there’s still time
you. haven’t woken up too late. now. dig
for change. the morning isn’t quiet
                              no
                              is
                              speech
                              less